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Irritating feminine

 I have been raised by my strict grandmother, for her a boy should not indulge even in conversation with girls. Which was also the belief system of my mother or may be how I perceived these two inseparable goddesses of my life. Since, I have no sisters of my own, I didn't get a chance to see how they evolve in life. This can be the perfect reason I am fully occupied within myself. My grandmother used to tell me, since my grandfather lost his sister in childhood  (fortunately the sister reside in our home with us as a Goddess), he often got emotional during Tihar (and to add the loss he also lost a very intelligent and successful brother ). So our grandmother's suggestion was to be strong and not to desire sister. Her teaching was to stand with high head, never cheat and do work no matter what situation of life you are going through. This suggestion helped me to weld power to pass my CA exam after having a bad breakup and in many other instances. 

These all add to neglect the feminine energy that is soft and nurturing. Since my mother and grandmother only had active role to form my ego formation, it is compassionate but in very bad shape. But I didn't know it, or didn't care enough to notice I know nothing about and lived all feminine side of my own. 

Severe urge to worship mother goddess (after experiencing or believe how she saved me through sorrows and harsh realities) must have been the demand of feminine within to see that I am not only masculine but also feminine.

But this feminine is too much irritating. This side can't walk a logical path. When from A to B, straight line is the shortest possible path, but this side has to make a whole curve even if A and B coincide or are near. It is dancing in joy and crying even in small incidents. The masculine has to collect it and be conscious of what is the task to accomplish. It believes it knows everything such as AHAM BRAMHASMI etc. Vedic declarations and when it wants to prove, I don't know where this feminine runs away. 

Reflecting the this masculine, feminine dynamics, the most masculine appearing God Mahadev seems to be in trance every time either in dance or meditation and even in war or poison. Her better half, mother Sati and later Parvati, she took the most fierce form of KALI, all loving mother, Sagarmatha of love and compassion. Being Sati she didn't even care life, but Mahadev couldn't and choose to be roaming around like a lunatic. What seems strong is weak and what appears weak is strong. Mahadev's life is how mother wished to shape it or liked it. 

What is seen and what has been have always been different. Reality always conceal itself, only the wise can see it.....

XYZ and TIME (illusion of mind)


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